You can’t fall when you’re already down!

He that is down needs fear no fall.
John Bunyan

Following major surgery less than two weeks ago I have seen the doctor at least twice now with complications related to the hysterectomy — none of them serious, just scary.

I also landed myself in the emergency room last night with MCTD-related issues, probably a flare from all the stress this week!

Thinking that I had finally kicked a lot of depression issues — this surgery has proved the battle is not over yet. 

But according to John Bunyan, author of “The Pilgrim’s Progress” — one musn’t fear of falling when already down. At least there’s a bonus to being in the valley — you can’t fall!

I feel this process has been one step forward, two steps back. But I am FINALLY sitting at my desk at work and hoping that I will be able to come in next Monday and work a full week from the office — and not the home one.

My first trip back to the doctor was about day six post-op. I began feeling very nautious, had a low fever and an all-around sick feeling. My abdomen also still felt pretty tender. Come to find out, after a sonogram, there was some fluid build-up around my internal incision.

I was placed on two antibiotics and given some more pain meds (Percocet) and Ibuprofen. Come to find out, I learned the hard way I don’t like the way that Percocet makes me feel. It tends to keep me up all night and make me jittery — not fun when you’re trying to rest and recover. 

Grossness WARNING::

So – My next visit to the doc was because I woke up in the moring and ma pee-pee was the color of copper. Yuck. I figured it was dehydration, but to be on the safe side went in anyways to make sure it wasn’t something more serious. Sure enough – it was dehydration. 

Then, last night – a trip to the Emergency Room brought some ease of mind after I found a hard knot that hurt on/in my left vein that goes straight to my heart. My entire hand and arm had shooting pains, numbness and tingling in it – and it continued to worsen. 

My sweet-as-ever guy left work and drove an hour to come rescue his “baby girl.” — in the storming rain mind you. 

He tried to comfort me on the phone (it had been an emotional week) sayin “I’m comin little bit!!” 

And he brought me and my guys to the emergency room at 10p.m. 

Diagnosis you ask … Scleroderma. Yuck! At least it wasn’t a blood clot or something more serious.

Here’s some pics from that –

Scleroderma knot in left wrist


Inflamed vein


They put me on another round of steroids to combat it and sent me home about an hour later. 

So – slept in a little and then finally made my way to the office this afternoon. Feels so good to be back at work and back into my routine. Being at home and so off — it just gives me an uneasy feeling. Guess I prefer routines more than I realized. 

And now – a weekend of solitude with Brad. Dinner and movies tonight – and making homemade pasta sauce tomorrow afternoon to enjoy with ma parents Saturday night.

The boys are at their dad’s this weekend. Missing them a lot, but glad they get to spend some time with their dad.

Had some unusual dreams over the last week, too. Will blog about those soon (I guess). 

I’m just glad it’s the weekend and things seem to be falling back into place! God is good!

Until next time, 


Oh and of course, here’s some more pics from the surgery and recovery!


Brad trying to sneak in a nap ❤




Me zonked out from the anesthesia



Before the pain hit (lol)



One of my best friends Denise 🙂

Brad found tha Starbucks ❤

Brad and me

Us again 😀

Home office
Week 1

First real day out of the house
10 days post-op
Lunch with ma guys ❤


About Imkjac

I love my work. I also love the following things: God, my boys, my family, dogs, cats, writing, photography, reading (a bit of a lit geek actually), cooking, being outdoors, hiking, fishing, film, music, Spotify, beards, tattoos, board games, TV (also a TV geek), Netflix, pajamas, antiquing, interior decorating (DIY), blankets, polar bears, art, food. I dislike these things: elevators, heights, unclear water, bridges. Thanks for reading my blog and hoping it brings some comfort and joy to others.
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2 Responses to You can’t fall when you’re already down!

  1. amoran79 says:

    Damn girl…. I really hope things look up for you soon. You’re in my prayers. God will watch over you too, babe.

  2. Thanks lady!! Feeling a lot better this week!! Hope you are well also!

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