As I say goodbye to 2012 and look ahead to a new year, I can honestly say I am excited about my future and what God has in store.
I have learned a lot this past year and although I’m not where I want to be financially, physically or spiritually — I can say that I am content. I think I have finally learned to accept me for me. I have also learned that the people who accept me for who I am, flaws and all — are the people I want to surround myself with.
I know a lot of people find it silly to set resolutions, but I like to do it. It helps me to set goals if I write them down. It also helps me to organize my priorities and it gives me hope and motivation.
I have several resolutions, but my top two this year are:
- Graduate College
- Move into my own place with my boys
I have many others, which are obvious – such as get healthy, be more organized, be stricter with my budget. But, graduating college is a biggy for me, as is moving out of my parent’s home. (I currently stay in their finished basement with my boys)
I really want to provide for my kids, but it’s hard with one income. I’m hoping the combination of a stricter budget and possibly a degree — will help me to at least provide a small home for the three of us. Of course, I would probably have to rent, but I’m ok with that. Just ready for a space to call our own.
Getting healthy is also a top priority for 2013. It’s been hard since having surgery and switching jobs, which lapsed my insurance coverage.
I had my first Rheumy appointment in a while before Christmas and I go back tomorrow to get the results of my blood work. I’m hoping it will give me some answers and I can get on the proper meds to combat all this autoimmune crap.
If 2012 has taught me anything, it is this:
- I can’t be in two places at once. I have learned that if I let go and live in the “now” rather than fret about where I’m not — it relieves a lot of unnecessary stress!
- There is always tomorrow! If I’m having a bad day I have learned to be thankful for tomorrow. I am learning to accept things as they come and then realize whether good or bad — it too shall pass.
- I am learning to say no. I think because autoimmune diseases don’t necessarily make you look sick, people tend to forget that it’s a constant battle. I am learning to say no when it’s too much and rest when I get the opportunity.
- I am learning when to involve people in my drama and when to leave them out. Some things are just better left unsaid.
- True love really does exist. I have learned that it is possible to love someone who gives that love back. That two people can truly care for one another, but also enjoy each other’s company and have fun together and work well together (as a team).
- I have learned to take chances, like with my new job.
- I have learned that God is faithful! He has never left me and no matter where I am, I have learned that He will meet me there.
- I have learned to talk with my boys, not at them. I have learned also that I really enjoy their company and we can have a lot of fun together. But, I also have learned that parenting is 90 percent work and 10 percent fun. Whether they like me in the end is not what’s important. It’s whether they respect me and what example I set for them on a day-to-day basis that counts.
I am so excited about this next year. I wish you all the best too and Happy New Year. Have you guys set any New Year’s resolutions and if so, what?
Me and Brad <3